It’s really hard to believe that Hudson is 7 years old today. It REALLY seems just like yesterday he was a baby.
I was 16 when I found out that I was going to be a mother. I was excited. I was scared. I had so many emotions running through me. I was still a child myself.
The next 29 ½ weeks were such a happy time for me. I was ready to be a mother. I knew I could do a good job. I had a never-ending smile as I prepared his very own room for his arrival.
Until…I thought about actually having to go to the hospital. You see, I’m terribly afraid of needles and the such. As the time came closer I became more and more scared. I decided he could live forever in my stomach. We would get along just fine! Unfortunately the doctor said that couldn’t happen.
So on May 27, 2004 at 5:30 am, his dad and I arrived at the hospital to be admitted. They quickly got me into a room and wasted no time getting the needles ready. I thought I would cry…or puke…or cry. At around 6 am they started the Pitocin and it was on! Ready or not this was the day I would meet my precious son!
At about 8 am the doctor came in and decided to break my water. Can we just say YUCK! I knew there was no turning back now…he was going to come sooner or later! Finally the contractions started picking up after this. I was in a lot of pain but I knew once I saw his gorgeous face it wouldn’t matter anymore.
Between 8 and 10 am I decided that I hated everyone and the pain was unbearable. I wanted the epidural. I was completely terrified now. A huge needle going in my back? Then a tube sticking in there all day? Really?? Were they nuts? I sucked up and maybe only cried a small amount…maybe…It was smooth sailing from there!
The majority of the day is somewhat of a blur for me. I slept a lot. I had a lot of visitors. This labor was creeping by at a very, very slow speed. I believe at about 6 pm I started feeling pressure like he was getting ready to make his debut. We called the nurses in and they said it was just about time. Hudson wasn’t all the way down so they were going to wait a few minutes to call the doctor but they wanted me to push a little bit to get his ready.
After about 10 minutes he was ready and the doctor hadn’t been called. The nurses quickly got on the phone and told him to get there NOW! We waited what seemed like to be an eternity but finally one of the nurses said he had just pulled up in front on the hospital. Now he just had to make it up 4 floors and to my room! I wanted to quit right there and go home. I’m pretty sure I asked the doctor if that was possible. I’m pretty sure he told me no because right after that I was PUSHING. But it hurt so I couldn’t hold it for the full 10 count. It seemed like it was never going to end.
At 6:45 pm my baby boy came into this world. At that point I had never felt so much love in all my life. The moment I laid my eyes on him it was love at first sight. He had my heart. He was mine. I was his. The cord was wrapped around his neck twice but he was ok. His dad cut the doctor when he tried to cut the umbilical cord.
These past 7 years have been such a growing experience for both of us. We’ve kind of grown up together. Hudson saved me from my teenage years. With what was going on in my life then there is no telling what I would have gotten into if it wasn’t for him. The Lord blessed me with my own miracle.
We’ve had our ups and downs as all parents and children do. I’m not a perfect mom. I’ve still got some learning to do. But he makes me feel like I’m the best mother on this planet. He tells me I am. He tells me how much he loves me and gives me the biggest hugs. He cries if I cry. He smiles when I smile. He helps me when I ask even if he doesn’t want to. He is an amazing child. I’m so lucky to have him.
I hope he always knows without a shadow of a doubt that I love him with all of my heart and soul. I wouldn’t be the person I am today without him. Oh and he is my twin...just saying!
I love you so much Hudson! Happy 7th Birthday!
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